Sunday, October 17, 2010

Of uncertainty

Have you ever had one of those moments in your life where you've planned like a lifetime to do that something, and when that day comes, you kinda have a cold feet?

From something major like the day you are about to get married, and you paused for a while to think, are you sure this is the end of your single life

Or something even simpler like a weekend plan to go up all the way to Batu Caves and that morning, paused and wondered whether you can do 272 steps.

Oh, btw, Batu Caves was awesome. Even better than I thought it would be. Such beautiful God's creation that made both of us speechless. And looking at other religions made Love and I realized how simple Islam is. As Dad mentioned to me once, "You have to learn about other religions, then only you can appreciate the true beauty of Islam."

Anyhow, here are some of the pictures we took the other day..

We had fun. Too much fun. And we had plans, of doing this and that for the next weekends and so on. Next Saturday we are going to i-city, then to Broga and so on..

On the way back from my in law's yesterday, Love and I had a serious discussion on our decision of having a baby.

We decided to start working for one after Bandung, but now both of us are having a second thought.

Our initial plan was to start working for a baby after a year of being married. But when friends started to pressure us, and Mom and relatives kept asking the most annoying questions everytime I eat a lot. Both of us paused and wondered and have the kind of thought that we SHOULD have a baby.

But seriously, the world is rushing us around!!
We seriously want a baby. But not now. We want to have a blast as a husband and wife first. We want to go everywhere we want without any responsibilities. We want to really get to know each other before we are attached with the responsibilities of a lifetime. Don't get me wrong, I surely think both of us will have fun raising our future babies, but as for now, we want a different kind of fun.

Sorry mum, I might disappoint you.. But it's our life and we want to enjoy every step of the journey. Not rushing to next stage.

And if somehow while we planned, Allah SWT wants to give us the bundle of joy, Alhamdulillah. He definitely knows us better :)

To those who keep scaring me whether I'm not scared of planning, I have faith that the rezeki comes from Allah SWT. :)

1 comment:

Mawar_Mohamad said...

i know what u mean ikeen :) having a baby is definitely a wonderful experience eventhough in the initial stage is very challenging at adapting motherhood BUT it also comes with alot of changes especially financially and responsibilities too. Those of added worries will put different mood and changes in a couple's relationship from time to time.So its ok to me if u both wanna postphone a while on baby plans.cherish the honeymoon moments dulu ok!!