Forgive and forget

Ramadhan is almost leaving, Raya is coming. Ahh.. The months of forgiveness :)

For the past 26 years of my life, I choose to forgive everyone and forget about their wrongdoings, every Raya. In return, I hope everyone else would just forgive and forget about all my wrongdoings for the year.

But this year, I think forgiveness is sufficient.

Evil?

Well again, it's how you look at it. Even the sweetest thing on earth, (e.g The Beaver Song by Robin Sparkles and Jesse Glitter) can be misinterpreted.

I can't bear to forget this time because if I choose to forget, I am sure I would do the same mistake twice.

Example, if you lend your money to some alcoholics only to find out they use that money to buy them some beer, would you forgive them? Yes, you might. But would you be so naive to forget whatever they did, and lend them some money again the next time and the same mistake happens.

I know I am so easy to forget sometimes.

This time around, I'm trying not to. Or rather, I would choose to just forgive and forget that person entirely. Can arr?

Quoting from a friend's twitter, "Respect yourself enough to walk away from anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy."

Secure :)

I miss this feeling. Of security.

The month of Ramadhan brings back my sense of security, of happiness, of contented. Alhamdulillah.

I believe the feeling of 'secure'doesn't just come from within. External factor counts.

I am blessed to have a husband that makes me feel secure. I am at peace. Knowing that at the end of the day, Khaira and I are the ones he comes home to.

I am forever blessed with the family I have and the few people I called 'friends'.

I feel secure with my work. Knowing that even if something happens, I could insya Allah, find a work that suits me better. But at the moment, I am happy with my work.

I feel secure of where we are financially.

But secure for me doesn't mean I like everything to stay the same forever.

The only constant in life is change.

And the willingness I feel deep inside, for that change (if I have to) makes everything seems even more secure.

When Love decided to blog!

If you know my husband five years ago, you might remember how he used to look like..

Previously

And this is him, now..

This year

As of today, he lost a total of 30 kg.

And he is here now, sharing his secrets with the world! You can find his blog next to 'About Dr. Ikeen' tab/pages on top of my blog.

Whee!!

Young aspiring researcher :)

I guess I must have forgotten to share the good news with you.

About a week ago, I received this award from my university..

Alhamdulillah :)

While my supervisor won the 'Best Achievement in Publication' award.

The real winner must be my dearest supervisor! She's a winner that generates a winner.

Btw, she's on air now!!! *Proud student mode*

TraXX FM --> http://dengar-radio.blogspot.com/2008/09/traxx-fm-english.html

The beginning of discipline

I believe it's time to start disciplining Little K.

Sounds harsh? Haha. Though many associate the word discipline with punishment, the meaning is actually teach (from Latin).

Nearing a year old, at times Khaira has her own tantrums. Sometimes even the smallest thing can make her angry, eg. when we're not alowing her to put something in her mouth. But I try to understand that what might seems very simple to me is a serious thing to Khaira. Nonetheless, there is no way I would let her shout at everything we're not allowing her to do.

Some of you might not agree of the thought of me disciplining my baby that early. Here are some reasons why I feel I should:

1) To instill a concept of right or wrong to her.
I believe if I start to tell her what's right or wrong in a later part of her life, she would become confused and asked, "Why is it ok for me to do that previously?" I am aware that she might be too small to fully grasp the concept, but big enough to slowly digest it.

2) To plant the seeds of self control.

3) To teach respect for the rights and feelings for others.
A baby is after all a baby, with the self-centered nature. But, to help her grow from a baby to a caring and sensitive child is our task.

4) To keep my sanity later on ;p

Everyone has different parenting styles. Nobody likes a tantrum baby/toddler that cry out loud in public. For me, I look up to two mommies when it comes to discipline, BFF Maria especially and Kak Iza :)

Sofea's first birthday :)

It was Sofea's birthday party last Sunday!

Sofea + BFF Maria

Potong cake :)

With Khaira :)

.. And the cul-de-sac crew!

So, October nanti Khaira's turn k?

Caramel pudding

I am.. oopss.. correction.. I was not so good with dessert before. But the lab I'm currently staying (I got a new lab yo!) are full with talented working supermums.

First, they insisted me to cook bubur pulut hitam, which was ok. Terkurang santan. Insya Allah, will try do it again very soon.

Then, last week I did this!! Caramel pudding, ok. Good enough for me, considering I just started with dessert. It took me like 20 minutes to get it done, simple recipe, yet very delicious!



Hiasan kena berguru lagi


Ok, recipe best kena share..

For caramel:
1/4 cup of sugar

For pudding:
3 eggs
1 can evaporated creamer (susu cair, bukan pekat manis ok!)
3 tablespoons sugar
1 teaspoons vanilla essence to get rid of the unpleasent smell of eggs (but since I don't have this, I just memandai potong daun pandan kat luar rumah, hehe)

Ok, simple recipe..

For caramel, just melt the sugar in a pan. Stir until it becomes caramelized. Don't have to put any water, the sugar will caramelized nicely, it takes time.

Then pour the caramel in a container. Put at one side. Don't worry, it'll become hard like candy. It's ok. Don't get panic like me. Haha!

For the pudding, take the eggs, creamer, sugar and vanilla essence in a blender, blend it until smooth. Also take a while. Patience is the key.

Then, pour in the container filled with caramel just now. Steam for 20 mins.

Anddd... ready to serve. Sebenarnye kena masuk fridge dulu, but kalau tak sabar mcm saye, boleh je terus potong n mkn. Yummy!

Pasnih nak buat bread and butter pudding pulak, then maybe boleh buat red velvet, pastu rainbow cake. Pastu boleh buat cake utk birthday party Khaira Asyikin! Ohh!! Berangan!