Goodbyes

I hate 'goodbyes'! What am i talking about? Everybody hates goodbyes..

Yesterday morning, I received an SMS from Nana (actually she sent the SMS the night before, but I went to bed quite early these few days). It says, "Dearest all, Farah's 2nd bro, Yan has just passed away today due to some sudden illness. Sedekahkan Al-Fatihah, semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat.. Amin.."

I called Love straight away and he asked, "Ada tahlil tonight? Let me know, I can try go home early."

I wanted so badly to see Farah last night, she's one of the best friends I would forever treasure. But Love usually got home around 8.30pm and another hour to Farah's house, we might arrived really late. So I said, "If you get home early, we go, but jgn rempit, take your time."

Later in the evening, I found the courage to actually call Farah. She picked up the phone with one ring, sounded all chirpy that it surprised me and totally clueless on how to react. I even for a while had a feeling that I must have had the wrong 'Farah'. She even managed to convince me that she's fine when I asked her about how she's been doing.

Not until I asked her again, "U ok?"
Farah: Terkejutla ikeen. It's just so sudden. He was healthy. Dr. said he was ok the morning before. It was just so sudden.

And that was when I sensed how hard she was trying to sound as chirpy as she usually is.

I said, "Kalau sempat, i datang tonight ok.."
Farah: Kalau dah habis tahlil, lambat pun takpe..

The moment she said that, I called Love and said, "Sayang, can we go and see Farah tonight?"

See the best thing about him is that he said OK to almost everything for me. He cancelled his meeting, got home before 8pm, for the first time in our married life and I'm so glad we made it.

Sigh.. life is so short. The incident of Farah's bro really hit me, this morning you're healthy as a horse with no history of major sickness, and the same evening, you're just no longer here.

I still feel all gloomy this morning. The fact that I have to say another goodbye to a colleague that is so dear to me. I just hope the power of internet will keep us closer.

Al fatihah to arwah.

And to a really really REALLY strong woman whom I know will get through this all, hang in there, k. ♥