Yesterday, Love called me and asked, “You wanna follow me to futsal tonight?”
I just laughed and said, “No, thank you, i wanna go sleep!”
Then, there was a silent at the other end. I got slightly panicked. “You’re kidding right? About asking me to futsal tonight?”“It’s okay, i understand if you’re tired.” He answered slightly hurt. Damn, what have I done.
“If you want me to go with you, I’ll go. I just thought you needed, you know some time with your guy friends. I thought you were kidding because you know I never said yes to that before right.”
“I know, I just thought that now, we’re married.. But it’s okay, Sayang. Maybe next time, k.”
Then, later that night, he was out with his friends, I was at home, watching movie, had a nice DIY spa at home and I didn’t realize he called. So I called him back. “What are you doing?” He asked.
“Watching Captain Awesome (in Chuck) then had a long nice bath,” I answered sounded all chirpy.
“Sounds like you’re having fun,” he replied sincerely, sounded happy for me.
But, i suddenly felt guilty.
And I remembered the time when I wanted to go shopping by myself and he asked me to wait for him to come back. The time he asked me to follow him for a jamming session with his guy friends, but I went shopping with my girlfriend instead. OMG!! How mean.
Sometimes, I tend to forget that I’m a wife now. I’m still enjoying my “ME” time. Not that I don’t like being a wife. I do, it’s the best thing that has ever happened to me in my life now.
But, as for now, I still need time by my own sometimes, just once in a while. I still love to shop alone all by myself, taking my own sweet time while multitasking on the phone with my friends at times (Since i always do this with BFF Qdin, it just reminds me of how much i miss him).
To share everything in my life with my better half is really really amazing, you know. He is sweet, lovable, helpful, and the list goes on, I just hope it’s not wrong for me feeling like this.
And i just hope someday, Love knows that I'm giving him some space of his own. Because i'm scared that when we're too attached, we tend to forget our own self, the one that both of us fell for at the first place.
(And since I would normally have this kind of serious conversation with BFF Qdin just makes me missing him even more.)
P/S: Qdin, things you have missed in my life: My bachelor convo, my wedding. Thing you are going to miss in my life: My Master convo. Boo, you suck!
2 comments:
Ikeen,
Such a sweet post. I think it is a good thing what you are doing. I see married people giving up theirselves once they get married. Of course it is nice to some times share things so that we can understand each other but we don't really need to share everything all time. Honestly, at times, I enjoy watching Glue play futsal as i get a glimpse of him enjoying himself and understand why he loves it so much but I suppose I should just limit to maybe at most 3 times a year. (Unless it's a competition as I would love to show my support). I still love listening to his excitement of sharing the experience when he calls me at the end of the day. At times also, i believe that we tend to get too attached to each other and forget ourselves. I sometimes think that it is when we get bored of each other as we tend to forget why we are attracted to attracted in the first place. I'm so happy that you are currently living a blissful married life and have a happy ending. Maybe one day, my prince will come and sweep me off my feet. Then, i'll also get a happy ending. Take care dear Ikeen.. Love Love!
Nadrah!! Thank you, your comment just makes me feel better. Sometimes i rasa mcm i ni mean sgt je, but after i read what u wrote, I rasa whatever pun, I have to draw the limits kan. And if Kapal pon ada tournament, I'm so looking forward to support. Kalau u ada lagi best. Love love!!
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