Friday, December 20, 2013

How we put K to sleep on her own bed

I've been anticipating and preparing for this day for quite some times..

The day I know I'm pregnant!

Yes friends, Khaira is gonna be a big sister!

I had myself checked a day before I went to Japan. I wasn't late. But on the day I should have my period, I have some spotting. Which was weird. That was how I did the pregnancy test and later confirmed with the doctor. Alhamdulillah.

When we arrived to Malaysia, Khaira started to have some sleepless nights. Masha Allah, lasaknye kanak2 itu, she kicked my tummy every hour and Love couldn't even sleep at night, he needed to sleep on the floor.

I guess that was the cue.

For a couple of months before, both Love and I had set up a lovely little bed for her. And almost every day we told her this is her bed, she needs to sleep on her own because she is such a good girl, yada yada.

So at first, once she fell asleep in our bed, we'd put her in hers. When she woke up she'd find herself on her own bed.

Until lately, she demanded to sleep on her own. Simple as that.

I believe it is all a fitrah. So when we take her cue, everything turns out smoothly. Alhamdulillah. :) she sleeps better than before on her own bed.

Monday, December 16, 2013

Chiba, then we say goodbye.

While I had my training in Chiba (which was an hour away from Tokyo), my loved ones had fun in Asakusa. Asakusa is a historical place with a big temple and a street to buy souvenirs, somewhat like jonker.

Back from Asakusa, our nightmare began. Khaira had a bad food poisoning, causing her to throw up for more than 10 times that day. Lucky we had a friend who stayed for a few months already in Japan. He gave us a list of some hospitals and english speaking clinics that opened the next morning. Khaira didn't sleep well that night.

The next day, she vomited only once but developed a fever and colic since he refused to eat the whole day.

Anyhow.. all we could think of was to go home at that time. I'm glad we're home now. Both love and mil developed a fever and diarrhea as well :(

Still, we had fun. Especially in chiba castle..

The view of sunrise from our hotel room right before we left for the airport.

It's just good to be home :)

Thursday, December 12, 2013

Fun in Tokyo

That Saturday, I moved from Tsukuba to Akihabara alone. Tsukuba and Akihabara are two different prefactures (in Malaysia, we have states, Japan divides the area by prefactures). Tsukuba is in Ibaraki prefacture, and Akihabara is in Tokyo prefacture, an hour away by train.

Love arrived at 11 pm and MIL around 11.30 pm. So I picked them up at Haneda airport alone. Gamble je naik train, first time had to switch from one train to the other. Alhamdulillah.. I survived the complicated Japan train.

View in Haneda airport, Christmas spirit is on

We managed to catch the last train at 1210 am to Apa hotel, Akihabara. Otherwise it would cost us around 8000 yen (rm250) by taxi. The hotel price in Tokyo over the weekend hikes up to 2.5 times than usual. Crazy.

That Sunday morning, we went to Odaiba. Had lunch with our cousin which happened to be there for a 3 month training as well..

Odaiba is an island filled with shopping malls and other attractions like legoland, madame tussauds, park, etc.

After lunch, we strolled along the beach, overlooking the rainbow bridge. They called it rainbow bridge because at night, the lights change the bridge to rainbow colours :)

There's a replica of the statue of liberty here.

And a real size Gundam that moves during show time.

With Lil Ezra,  imagine if we have 2 kids! 

That night we shopped around Akihabara,  got the feel of the worst earthquake during our stay (not so bad, Alhamdulillah), packed up because the next day, I'm leaving to Chiba prefacture for work.

Saturday, December 7, 2013

My last day in Tsukuba :)

Hye everyoneeee *wave*

I'm in Japan currently. Been here since Tuesday.  Alone. No Ks.

My first time leaving Khaira made the both of us so miserable. She kept asking mom why I didn't bring her. Sadddd.. it's 2 am now in Japan.  Couldn't sleep cuz I was so excited counting down the time I got to hold her again.

Japan has been fun. It was in between fall and winter now. Temperature ranges between 1 degree to 13 degrees. I survived with only 3 layers; long john, normal clothing and jacket since it wasn't that windy compared to Korea. Long john is a must, it really helps a lot.

I'm here for some trainings actually. At the moment I am in Tsukuba, my training is at Natural Research Institute for Earth Science and Disaster (NIED). Basically I'm learning on how the Japanese alert the residents when disaster happens. So we can have a flood and landslide monitoring system in our country as well.

Before you saw the geeky side of me, let me just stop and share with you the pictures..

Day 1.

Arrived at Tsukuba around 9.30 am and straight to NIED.. omgggg so beutiful Subhanallah..

The Japanese technology amazed me, I was speechless looking at their research. So ethical and sincere and hi tech.

I stayed at Toyoko-Inn hotel which was in Kenkyu Gakuen. A station away was Tsukuba station which was filled with shopping malls. Seriously, shopping malls are everywhere here. Had dinner there that night.

Day 2.

Started the training with a presentation on what we have done for flood and landslide monitoring in our country so far.

After training, we took an hour train to Akihabara, Tokyo. This is like Low Yat, since I am here for work, I took the opportunity to survey their technology in gadgets and such. So geek I know.

Slept over at my friend's hotel because I was scared to walk alone to my hotel and also because it became so lonely to a point that I felt like I could break into tears anytime, missing my lil ones..

Day 3.

Woke up really early.. it was so cold.. and we strolled down the park near my friend's hotel before the training.

It was a half day training before we moved to visit Ibaraki University which was an hour and a half away from Tsukuba.

That night, I shopped for a while at one of the malls near Tsukuba station and off to pack my stuff for the morning.

Day 4.

Checked out, left my bag and shop again for some souvenirs in Ijas mall near my hotel.

So hard to find clothes for people back at home, everything is for winter.

Then I left Tsukuba for good and started my lonely journey to Tokyo. See you in my next entry.

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Leaving my baby

I'm leaving to Japan tonight for work. Alone. Without my baby.

Even typing that causes a hollow in my heart.

I'll be there for 10 days. Love will come on night of the 4th day with K.

I don't know how I'm gonna survive without her. The first day ever in her almost 26 months life in this world.

But I received a good news yesterday, making the lonely nights in Japan bearable.

Of course I'm dying to share.

But let's wait until I got back from Japan.

Pray for a safe trip for us. In shaa Allah.  Ameen.

In the mean time, I leave you with an idea of how paranoid a mommy can be, leaving her daughter flying alone with the dad.

Friday, November 22, 2013

Happy 28th birthday, Love!!

It was Love's birthday today!! Yayy!!

We celebrated with a breakfast at Putrajaya, then we watched Flight. While he was out for Friday prayer, I prepared whatever left needed to be prepared for his homemade lunch birthday celebration.

I took a half day leave a day before. Shopped at Giant and cooked 3 hours straight. Another hour cleaning up.. oh my god exhausting! But totally worth it..

Look at this happy face..

For appetizer I tried Masterchef's onion soup, this is the most difficult and time consuming of all. I replaced Sherry with apple cider. So delicious!!

For main dish, I cooked salmon with shiitake and spinach, recipe from You totally get that fine dining feel, but I'm not a big fan of mushroom, so I rate this 3 over 5.

Then, for desert, I made cheesecake in a cup which I improvised from pink stiletto. So rich and awesome, Kapal loves it a lot.

Had pear and cranberry juice for the beverage. Both of us had a wonderful day to ourselves today.

Yesterday was our 12th anniversary and we had a humble celebration at Sunway with the little ones.

May Allah swt blesses our marriage and little family so we can stay happy and loving for the rest of our lives. Ameen.

Saturday, November 16, 2013

Khaira time and Ibu time

My life at work has been super hectic.. wayyyy tiring than I thought it would be after PhD. Nonetheless.. that peace of mind I have is just blissful. Alhamdulillah.

So after convo, I took a day off. Brought this little girl to kidzoona, jusco equine. Mother daughter time. And all she played was the things she had at home.. balls, masak2 and lego (T_T)

I'm proud of myself, for once I didn't bath her straight away after I brought her home. Friends said I gotta control my OCD level that gotten worse these past couple of years.

After letting her having her afternoon nap, I went to my definition of world's heaven. Spa!! I guess the usual spa I went closed down already, so I went for my second best and signed up for a year's facial. I'm so gonna cry looking at my credit card statement end of this month.

Then, I spent 2 freaking hours looking for a muslimah hair saloon in equine. Found 2, both tutup. Why is it so hard to find a muslimah hair saloon, whyyyyyyy?? *cries*

On a lighter note, Khaira is progressing super well in her arabic, she can read hijaiyah with signs now. May Allah swt eases up our journey to seek for His blessings. Ameen.

Thursday, November 14, 2013

my phd convo and my interview with rtm

Last Sunday was the day where I became the happiest girl in the world. It was my PhD convo.. the day I've been waiting for, for as long as I could remember.


I graduated with most of my friends from the department..

It was also a special one as Tun Dr. Mahathir was awarded with honorary doctorate from our uni at that day. What better way to have your convo right.

Being the youngest to get her PhD at the convo, I was also later being interviewed by the RTM.

After having our lunch on that day, we had a family photoshoot done by Elegant Vision. It's a door to door photoshoot.. very convenient for Khaira.

I bought the deal from mydeal for RM100. And paid additional RM350 for the raw and edited pictures both soft copy and printed.

Some raw pictures captured on the day.

Though I was hoping both my grandmoms and uncle were here to celebrate,  I guess I miss my co supervisor the most.

The first journal I made, he gave me about 30 revisions. Now, I published around 30 journals and conferences already.. and a renowned reviewer in my field.

The first exhibition I attended he gave me 17 revisions. Up to date, I participated in 10 exhibitions and won medal each time.

I miss him.. so far away in Oman now.  But my supervisor is still here to mentor me, so much I need to learn still.. so Alhamdulillah for His plan.

To both my supervisors, Prof. Dr. Norashidah and AP Dr. Mansoori.. thank you for making me who I am today. God knows how much I change.. both of you witness the evolution.. I pray every day.. only Allah swt can pay back all the debts I have to you guys.

I love them a lot.

While at it, the university suggested me to write a book and gave a talk on how i finish my phd part time in three years.

In shaa Allah.  Let's pray I'm given the strength to share it with my dearest readers.

Monday, November 11, 2013

What PECIPTA 2013 taught me

The whole week last week, I was juggling between my graduation and PECIPTA. PECIPTA stands for Persidangan dan Ekspo Ciptaan IPTA. It was an exhibition to acknowledge the university research that is ready for commercialization.

This year, I was a member for three different project. It was fun. Previously, I was a leader for ITEX and MTE in 2010, 2012 and 2013. Being a member takes my mind off things for a while.

It gave me time to observe the different leadership skills exist, and which one I want to be. I now understand that being a leader doesn't mean you have the power to command people every now and then rudely. My standard on rude is quite high.. Leaving a 'please' in your every request is unacceptable. That taught me that you're gonna be around for the longest time.. better make yourself pleased while we were at it.

I even learned something from this one little girl whom is very dear to me.. she said something like people reacts to you what you reacted to them, or rather what you feel for them.

I learned a lot from the Trump book I read, which for me was a mindblowing and I highly suggest this to all of you. He said your mind controls only 5% of your life.. another 95% is your subconscious mind. So for me.. the first rule of being a leader as I learned in PECIPTA is to really respect every member of your team. The rest in shaa Allah, the way you request something from them will affect your conscious mind.

I also have a habit of isolating myself to the max. My ex student (now a good friend) used to relate me to a malay song that I never heard of before. It sounds something like in a village, there's a really old house with a box under that house. And under the box there's a frog and that's me.

Honestly, that was a slap in the face, one valuable lesson I learned from a student. "Pick a friend who drained you or inspired you," he said. Some people inspired me in a different way.. to others they just drained me..

Anyhow.. I took his advice and Trump's.. so I walked around.. socializing.. passed around my card. But I think I'm gonna do better the second time around.

Although, the ending was the best. The three projects I involved in.. we obtained a silver and 2 bronzes. And other additional bonuses than those I mentioned above is that I never felt any closer to all the true friends I have in my lab. How blessed I am. Alhamdulillah.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

A visit to the Zoo Negara

We spent our Deepavali holiday at Zoo Negara this year. Surely missing my neighbour's yummiest tossai that he served on Deepavali's morning.

Anyhow, went there with both of my parents. They were so excited to bring their only granddaughter to the zoo. Brought back all the memories.

We surely had so much fun!!

The entry is RM 30 per adult. Free for Khaira. I leave you with the photos..

The aftermath

I shall come again!!!! In shaa Allah.

Monday, October 28, 2013

How I wean off my Little K

Two years old marks a gigantic step for Khaira.

It started with weaning off.. no more breastfeeding, sweetheart! *yay*

The yay is because, it hurts like crazy laaa.. she has sooo many teeth now and I have lesser milk, so you get my picture right. Plus the Quran said until two, and friends said that beyond two it gets harder to wean them off (lagi kesian) and they became so dependent (I want her to be manja and yet independent at the same time) and my milk is almost gone nowadays, beats the purpose right.

I didn't do coffee, salt, balm, plaster, none. I tried Barely Supermommy's  method. It works like magic!! Thank you, Dr. Halina.

Everyday since she was 18 months, I kept telling her, she needs to drink using bottle when she turns two. I made sure she said ok.

 Since I myself hate abrupt chanegs, I tried not to do it to my baby.

What I did..

At 18 months: "Khaira, you can only drink Ibu's milk after 11am ok!" So right after she woke up until 11am, no Susu Ibu as what whe was referring my milk to.

At 20 months: "Khaira, you can only drink Ibu's milk after 1pm ok!"

At 21 months: "Khaira, you can only drink Ibu's milk after 5pm ok!"

At 22 months: "Khaira, you can only drink Ibu's milk after 8pm ok!"

At 23 months: "Khaira, you can only drink Ibu's milk only when you want to sleep at night!"

At 24 months: "Susu Ibu finish already, let's drink Khaira's milk (as what she was referring to her Enfagrow)

Along the way, I bought God knows how many bottles.. gambar cupcake lah, frog lah, sheep lah, so I let her choose, "Susu Ibu habis, what bottle do you want today?"

She got so excited to choose. And totally forgotten about my milk.

Of course sometimes it worked. Sometimes it didn't.

Persistent is the key.

And of course, I'm just a mother, some times I felt so kesiannn.. But now at two years and a week, I can proudly say, she weaned off for almost two weeks already.

I'm proud of you, Big Girl!!

Next step, separate bed.. *Close my eyes and pray*

Saturday, October 26, 2013

Khaira's 2nd birthday party

Khaira's 2nd birthday party was rather mundane..

That morning.. after we cooked the food for 200 guests.. we received the news of the passing of my grandmom. Too late to call off the party and couldn't afford to waste the food, dad asked us to proceed while the whole family left to kampung before the event started.

It started with a tahlil for both my grandmom and uncle..

I'm forever thankful to my aunt and dearest colleague,  Red whom came to help us since both my parents and mil weren't there. Mil was in Korea at the moment.

Khaira had two birthday cakes this year, the ones below was proudly done by my sil..

I would like to thank my lovely friends whom made it on that day and make the whole sadness easier for a while. I love each and everyone of you..

Some pics that Love managed to capture..

Happy birthday, my sweetheart. May next year we have a better celebration.

I love you.


My grandmother passed away eight days after the passing of my uncle.

She passed away in her sleep peacefully with four of her children coincidentally there to visit her.

Innalillah. Al fatihah.

Three losses in less than half a year hurts like crazy.

I hope that would be the last.

Friday, October 11, 2013

The birthday I don't feel like remembering..

We've had a perfect plan for my birthday.. yet I woke up with puffy eyes.. too much tears from last night..

It started all well. On the 10th, both Love and I spent the night at Istana Budaya.. so much laughters. We came home late, perhaps around 1am. Straight away went to bed at mom's place as we need to work that Friday.

2 hours later.. mom called. I was kinda annoyed. It was 3 am and mom could have just knocked my room. I didn't pick up her call.  Went to her bedroom and it was empty. I started to panick. So I called her back.

"Uncle Mi passed away," she said in tears. I was numb. This can't be happening.  See, my grandmother from dad's side was seriously sick. She was in a hospital with life support. Both of my grandparents from mom's side was sick. My aunt recently got her leg amputed. But Uncle Mi was as healthy as a horse. The night before, he spent the entire night with my dad mamaking. What the hell is going on??

Was hoping it was a dream. I guess it wasn't.

He was the closest uncle I've had in my life. He was there with me in every stage of my life..EVERY.

Too hard to write the good times we've had. He passed away due to heart attack, the thing he never had before. Friday morning, kebumi on Friday, dalam 10 zulhijjah. He's one of the kindest person I've met in life. He's just 51.

I'm still at shock. Loss for words. Insecure. And I miss him god knows how much..

Al fatihah Mohamed Helmi Mohd Saad. I love you. You'll forever be missed.

Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Our trip to Cameron Highland!!!

My family and I went to Cameron last weekend, our first since a very loonggg time ago.

We booked an apartment called Tringkap apartment via Agoda, which costs us RM 300 per night including tax. We were absolutely happy with the super spacious and clean apartment. It has five queen size bedrooms with two toilets equipped with heater.

The location of the apartment was probably the best. Near to the attractions, but quite a distance from Tanah Rata, so we can avoid the traffic. It has two Muslim restaurants nearby which was quite convenient for us.

Friends suggested to use Simpang Pulai rather than Tapah, so it took us 4 hours (plus stopping for a break and prayer at the RnR) to reach our apartment.

I'm gonna leave you with the photos..

Day 1.

We first stopped by at Lavender Garden, RM4 per adult. Sooo cantik!!!

The cafe was super expensive; selling strawberry cheese cakes, scones, strawberry tea and coffee. However they are not to our likings.

The view from its cafe

Abi: Beautiful!! Who made all these, Khaira?
Khaira: Allah!!!

Then, we went to Bharat Tea Walk. Entrance is free. Buy your Bharat tea here. Tempat lain semua mahal, though they claimed they were the cheapest. Tipu itu semua, I kena tipu!

Mom and Dad!
 Double rainbow, look look!!

View from our apartment
At night, we drove through the heavy traffic to Tanah Rata for a steamboat dinner for what seems like the most decent and the only halal signboard restaurant we found; Glory 78 Steamboat Snack Corner, next to De La Ferns Hotel. Price is RM 23 per adult.

Then, we dropped by for souvenirs shopping at the night market!!! Night market was super awesome, bigger than the ones in Batu Feringghi.

Day 2

Started our day with the Bee Museum..

Then we went for lunch at Tanah Rata. Parents went for bonsai hunting, Love and I went for shoulder and foot massage, a must do!

After that, we went to Butterfly park, ok best gileeee sangatttt!! RM 5 per adult. So worth it!!

She made this face most of time; whenever she touched the insects, the flowers, adoiii..

Vandalisme at its worst
Dropped by at the strawberry farm, nothing much to see. And ended our journey with the chocolate factory!! So cantiklahhh this chocolate place, must visit!! And the foods from the cafe were delicious!!

Next trip: Pangkorrrrrrrr!!! Next month jee.. :)